tears on your eyes, smile on your lips

I've always been a firm believer of prayer. I might have trust issues but praying calms me. Some prayers are answered in a heartbeat, most take time, but generally whether or not you get the answer that you want, you will always get the best ending. Eventually, you'll realize that things happened the way they did because in the grand scheme of things, it is contributing to something more massive than you could ever imagine.

Every night, I pray for several things. Some are prayers of gratitude, some are of apologies, but most are for favors. (Oo na, ginawa ko ng genie si God. But I don't think He minds because He's awesome like that. ;)) Some favors are mine, but some are for others mainly because I feel them--- I feel their frustration in one way or the other and I'm merely applying the golden rule. I suppose when the time comes that I'll feel as frustrated as they are, my good karma points would be enough to get me through the crap I'm in. There are times when I don't realize that my prayers were already answered. Maybe because I'm too busy with my life that the little miracles, I fail to see. It's sad, I know. But whenever I can actually comprehend with what's happening (because most of the time I'm pretty much in a state of lucid interval. parang PC ko lang.haha), I get jittery, mostly with disbelief since it rarely happens to me. It's almost as rare as seeing a rainbow or an eclipse, or some other natural phenomena that I always miss. Today is one of those rare days. I swear, this answered prayer is almost as sweet as my own victory. I'd like to think that there are hundreds of us praying for the same thing. And just like anything else in this universe, in God's perfect time, it will happen. Personally, the bliss did not just come from the fact that someone I know is insanely happy right now and I somehow contributed to it. It's more of, with all the craziness happening around me, negativity left and right, pressure more humongous than possibly the milky way galaxy, adjustments here and there - Someone mightier than anything in this world is still up there looking at us. And when the time comes, when His perfect time comes, you will get your heart's desire. I've always believed in this. But I guess you can somehow get lost along the way. This...today, He kind of gave me that loving tip on the head to remind me to just keep going and focus. That it won't be an easy ride, but it will be worth it.

I wish I can just scream the good news out loud. But it's not mine to tell. So I'll just end with this: to my dearest, you deserve it more than anyone in this world. I know that you will take care of this gift from God. I'm sure you're not aware of it, but you just made all of us believe in the power of prayers.

I started this day with a tweet: "#TodayIwill try to be positive..." And that's exactly what happened. Tomorrow, I shall try to attract good vibes once more, promise! ;)